I know i've been away a while. I really don't know why, I think it must just have been one of those things that happen once in a while. The blog didn't seem such a priority. I will try to rectify that, because I value you reading my blog and I do value having new readers. Besides, having a blog is a way of releasing emotions, like a diary. It is important and I do want to write frequently. Anyway, I'm having a lazy day today. Sometimes your body just needs to relax and take it easy for awhile. All i want to do is curl up in bed with a comforting video from Youtube through my Ipad (: *and nibbling on salty potato chips*

My week has consisted of working quite a little bit, catching up with my old-homie through Whatsapp; whose son has just turned a year old, dating my skinny boyfriend, giggling away and contemplating to continue my studies.Life is dead tough for just an O level holder like me these days, I reckon. Literally every office job I went fo was closed to me (I've given up for the moment). I really want to get on in life, but every year new set of Diploma graduates overtakes me and I am left behind. Well, that's how it feels anyway. So here i am, gearing up for the real thing and storing up enough perseverance to pull me through this long journey. Some people might be thinking I am wasting too much time repeating the same tests over and over again, but i'm still pursuing it for my own sake.

All the best to my dear friend too, who is walking on the same path with me towards reaching our same goal (: I'm honestly very nervous and a little excited to go through a whole new chapter. Well, nothing is impossible.

On a depressing note, i feel like a trash right now with all these bright red spots on my face after one session of facial extraction. Do i really have to look at those stupid magazines with tall, stick-like, porcelain white skin models to feel beautiful? They always say; ( it doesn't matter what you look like on the outside,as long as you're a good person,as long as you respect others ). It's been told hundreds of times before, but still my self esteem is pulling me down every second of my insecure life.

I want to have a clear, beautiful skin with no pimples, acne or blackheads :( Am i asking for too much?

Sigh.

There is never a sudden revelation, a complete and tidy explanation for why some things happened far from what i desire. I'm slowly learning to adapt and let it flow naturally forward in whatever way they like. Reality check, life is a series of natural and spontaneous changes. It isn't as bad as how i initially imagined to be working in a totally new environment. Everything will be just fine, i hope. It's a brand new year anyway! There is also nothing more precious than to be in pink of health. Fortunately, I'm blessed with such loving boyfriend who sticks around for almost three months already in every kind of situation, be it good or bad. Let's just say I've found what I've been looking for ((((: