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Time changes everything, even you and I have changed

This life i'm living resembles an epic tale where dreams wilt before they bud and where a search for her true inner self finally makes a coward into a pretty damsel. My world is a patchwork of the beautiful & the horrific. As the days unfold, it combines the tones of memory and nostalgia with a desire to recreate a better tomorrow.




The rain, the winter spring has made us fade away



I really wonder how you feel on these nights so alone




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“I AM ME.
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Monday, February 22, 2010 || 4:15 PM

now i just call it lucky.

It just feels nice when your Monday isn't as blue as the previous weeks.Well,obviously something so good must have struck me & I'm more than thankful for that.finally,after about more than 200 resumes sent all over the World Wide Web,I'm shortlisted for the available position in Zara. Weeeeee! I'm feeling so gay right now and my hormones were doing the craziest tango in town when i first received this piece of fabulous news.I'm glad that I'm blessed with greater opportunities (better than Diva,of course.Pardon me, I'm still so pissed).I badly hope that history don't repeat itself,because I've felt rotten for too long already and i wish to move on.Anyway,thanks for all the well wishes (: only they know how big this deal is to me.The rest,never really cares and i don't give a damn about it.

& yes Sasabaybe,make sure you get a satisfactory answer from that ****** by Tuesday.I know how hurtful it is to be treated as such.Don't worry alright,you know you still have me who is willing to share your problems. Beep me anytime alright (:

That's that.

My next concern is always him,yes my boyfriend.He is the first to know about my happiness,even if there is anything that I'm unhappy with.It's honestly exciting when i could share my heart's content to someone who never fails to listen.That one surprised moment you made on the Orchard Central rooftop yesterday really did trigger my mind.For once,I've to start thinking carefully about how I'm going to take our relationship to a higher level. As mentioned before,I'm scared of any outcome because we are only capable of planning. Maybe i should add on one more point: I'm more worried about making or holding on to any promises. At times,it seems too nice to be true.That is when 'trust' get involved in the picture.I've been trying to shoulder both - the trust that we've built since we started and the bucket of promises you have given me.Believe me, it has not been easy.So now what I'm asking from you in return,is to love me for who i am.

Just that,nothing else.


Saturday, February 20, 2010 || 2:21 PM

"when L I F E gets hard, screw it" .

It's such a crack, really. I got up half an hour earlier than yesterday with yet,zero resolution for the week. Well,that's pretty natural for me. Then i saw two missed calls on my cellphone:Bf (very much expected) & an office number. I was pretty sure it's going to be another set of interview. The day before,i went for Zara and it turned out quite okay. I am very confident that they will call me back for 2nd appointment next week but i can't safely vouch that I'll get the spot. hais, it is always the outcome that i fear most. So back to the anonymous call - i was darn shocked. It's the moment I've been waiting for so much! The Orange Tee Company called for an interview,like finally. They are offering close to 2K for Customer Service Executive position. I sent almost 10 resumes to them in one day during the CNY period. But,here comes the biggest disappointment.They want a candidate who can speak not only average, but at least basic phone etiquette in Chinese (gggrr!) I quickly surfed the net and look for 'English-Chinese translator' at google. I was almost there,but they are not fully convinced ):

I'm pissed too. that's why i never hesitate to apply for mandarin course at the nearest CC just now. It's like almost impossible now to get a job without mastering their language. gosh! Bf was terribly funny & also very irritating when he spoke to me in Chinese. What can i say,luck is not on my side.

out of boredom,i spent on facial for no reason. yikes,if he gets to know- he would strangle me :/

Wednesday, February 10, 2010 || 7:26 PM

In my heart there, rings a melody for you.


Well,there is just too many matters gushing in and out of my undersized brain lately but it is almost impossible to jot it all down. so far there is never a day that i could smell complete joy and yet my previous Super-Bitch employer is not making it any easier for me. She always made me wish her mum had been infertile. gggrrr! They made me totally realised that working for their brands (my case,i worked for Diva) has been such a major disaster. I had to chase after my own salary since last week which is supposed to be one of their responsibilities to do so on time. I am dead disappointed. I was screaming on the phone the other day like a fisher woman with a bad case of PMS just to get a satisfactory answer from them about my cheque. Whatever it is,i made it crystal clear to them that i would take legal action against the company if they still fail to pay me by this coming Friday.I can be fairly diplomatic when i choose to which is not very often,actually. Fuck it,it is such a swell to liaise with such losers.

Hais.(take a deep breath) anyway,i am somehow curious about how my V'day going to be. But it doesn't really matter actually because i see beautiful moments each time he is there for me.To me,that is more than special. He gave me another Disney character few weeks ago,Winnie The Pooh.Now i am wondering from where he got those ideas of buying me soft toys, it's either i appear like a small kid whenever I'm with him or he purposely want to jam my overloaded room because he knows exactly how messy it is.Lols, Baby i love you laaa (: