Happy 3rd month,Masham (:

People are funny. Faces that are imperfect are said to have character and human charm. Most probably, that is why i fell for him at first. Gradually,we both are able to witness our own good and flaws. He sure could now predict that deep down,i am a weak person. I yielded to him in everything. and i still am, according to my mood swing. Luckily for me,whenever my protest was delivered in rapid fire, he countered it in measured tones. yet,he isn't perfect. in fact,no one is. but slowly,he proved to me that behind all these imperfections - we can still work for more joy and laughter each passing day.

at times, life is all about simplicity.

I'll be that good girl that you can't put down.

Fcuk. I am growing jaded by the minute. I effing hate my temporary job at Robinsons. It definitely is never going to suit my taste buds. so today i said I'm ill, but I think they know I'm just malingering. whatever, i brutally don't care. I basically got paid for standing like a living zombie- doing absolutely nothing. I can't even sell the items skilfully because it is not my favourite department. household linen- what the hell. & worse, I've to travel all the way down to Raffles City knowing that i could have gotten a nearer location which offers me the same hourly rate. Darn. However, i did make friends with a few. that's positive. at the very least, I'm less scared now. yeah,I'm fully aware though that everywhere is turning into a deep shit hole- jobs slowly depleting and you should just grab what's being offered. but i swear i would commit 3rd degree homicide if i have to stay any longer in such soporific ambience. geez! Oh well, I'm going to be one of the Divas pretty soon anyway. that's what i call pure goodness (: no doubt,everything seemed to be happening in slow motion but I'm thankful that it is not turning more bitter than what I've to go through at the moment. & i know no matter how ugly things would turn out to be,my Masham will always be there. Eee-hee-hee-hee =D maybe he will never understand that my every kiss is actually a promise that you haven't seen the last of me yet.there is more where this come from. & please don't hate me when i start blabbering about my ex-boyfriends.it all came out like word vomit- seriously unintentional. after being beaten with such cruel past, it is honestly not easy to forget. I'm glad, you listened. aku sayaaaaaaaaaaang kau *winks*

ehh by the way, I've not heard from my girlfriends for like ages already. after i bumped into my homie last few days, i realised how much i missed her and the rest. it's bloody torturing when i have to temporarily abort my girls-outing plans due to no-money circumstances. gggrrr!

I'm once again virtually existent- on a brand new World Wide Web page. i suddenly realised that i must start over with a clean slate. i didn't want anymore grotty history,I've had enough of those for a while. i still am breathing and life-threateningly lazy at all times. I'm obviously still the same,old me even though few of my pure substances fail to notice. they keep thinking that I've somehow changed just because i rarely send them 'hi! how are you doing babe/dude?' smses or ask them out like our yesterdays. hais,cummon' homies. you people really have to stop assuming things that never existed in the first place.i may be spending most of my time with my precious boyfriend now,but it doesn't mean I've grown mean towards any of you. anyway,being in a relationship ain't easy too. i hate to use this word 'regret' but unfortunately I'm not good at cheating- especially my own feelings. honestly yeah,there are certain times i feel like it never should have begun. pardon me but life is truly never fair. one moment i wish i could get back my single life,can stop caring and worrying about such maudlin affairs. but on the very next minute,i would feel abandoned. i thought of my life,of the love that i had possessed and let go of- but none of the broken ones had a happy ending. then i grow jaded picking up boyfriends on passionate whims and then passionately dropping them again. now,I'll just have to stick to one. he isn't particularly attractive,but he isn't ugly either. what surprised me most is that we definitely have opposite interests. he is a dancer- whatever hip hop thingy and I'm obviously not. this extremely huge gap between us has not yet created any undesired misunderstandings,i just feel out of place. luckily so far,it has been quite beautiful- not fully. i shall see how it goes.

just a short recap of my Saturday,because I'm rather forgetful. Bf had to attend camp in the afternoon for bloody no reason. so after it ended,i met him at Causeway Point for late lunch and another movie 'My Girlfriend Is An Agent'. it was terrifyingly funny! Eee-hee-hee-hee =] we've watched almost everything, except for My Sister's Keeper. i bet it's already over because i didn't see its show times anymore.why am i always a little too late? pfft.

okay,it's already 5.15am and i forgot to give my Bf a call. woops,sorry sayang. goodnite,love you.