(: My Tuesday with Bf was more than impressive. I felt good in my mini black dress with chunky colourful bead bracelets cuffed on my both hands & Bf looked so stunning in his Korean Hip Hop Style. Firstly,we travelled to Toa Payoh to get Baby's new Rose Pink PSP. I hope you like it the way it is,alright? Honestly i believe it costs nothing compared to what you've sincerely done for me. Thank you for being there every passing days,i love you even more. Then,we went to Bugis & effortlessly spent on anything that is nice. I swear,that was the greatest pleasure.

I couldn't stop myself from choosing,trying and flagging that NETS card to the cashier. If only I'm a lil richer,i would have bought more things for Bf too. Oh well,there is always another pay day for as long as I'm not lazy to go to work. Yes! That reminds me of a piece of brilliant news. Bf finally got a job! I'm too happy right now. He will never understand how much i care about his near future. In fact at times,I'm the one who worries the most. So at the moment,my only one wish is to see him doing well & be happy always. * muah! * After hours of shopping,we headed to Causeway Point for a movie. We watched 'Nightmare On Elm Street' which didn't really leave me with any kind of impression. Never mind,I'm more excited about the upcoming Twilight Saga:The Eclipse on 1st July. I definitely can't wait.

hmmmm.
okay goodnight.

I think, there is hardly a person in the world who is not familiar with the following situation. Early morning, your alarm clock is ringing, you wake up and the first thought that comes to your mind is something like this: “Oh, no! It was such a great dream that I was seeing… I’ll stay in bed just two minutes more, nothing is going to change for just two minutes…” & there you go fall into deep sleep again. This was exactly what happened earlier today. I will still blame it on my flat-batt hand phone because that is my only alarm device that i always rely on. In the end,i was able to reach my workplace at 7:38am,leaving me with only 2 effing minutes to spare for the rest of June. The whole idea is that i cannot be late for more than 10 minutes,if not they will strip off my $500 allowance. It is darn tough for someone like me who is never punctual. Or,i could depict another similar situation-it happened the day before actually.I was randomly watching the shows on every channel. I looked at my clock and saw that it was time for me to start getting ready for a movie date with Bf but i enjoyed watching teevee so much and can’t find motivation to give up watching. I guess this is a typical fight between the things we have to do and the things we truly enjoy doing, and it’s a habit of many typical latecomers to make a choice rather for the things they enjoy doing. He was fucking pissed of course. It's not my first time anyway. Gosh,i really have to put an end to this sickening habit of mine. Or else,i might lose his trust and more importantly my job. So that is my new resolution for the week & hopefully it stays for lifetime.

Let's just change topic. I had abort few very good plans indeed with my best girlfriends due to some unforeseen circumstances which i won't elaborate. (that includes lack-of-money circumstance) That's truly bad because I've been wishing to spend time with them after so long. Sigh,only Heaven knows how much i miss my pretty bitches. Very well,i shall wait till next week for better plans (:

So yeah,I've been very negative lately. It's not that i choose to put myself into such situation but at times,hell just keeps stirring into your life. It seems like my pray for smoother days has not been answered. Yet,i believe God doesn't give you more than one little piece of the story at once. You know,the story of your life. Otherwise your heart would crack wider than you could handle. He only cracks it enough so you can still walk,like someone wearing a cast. But you've still got a crack running up your side,big enough for a sapling to grow out of. Only no one sees it. NOBODY SEES IT. Everybody thinks you're one whole piece,and so they treat you maybe not so gentle as they would if they could see that crack. Hopefully, all this shit is just going to be temporary. The next fine day,i try to tangent off from all these melancholy by acting like it never happened. I continue earning money like any other days and meet my Bf almost every night. He has been the best cure for all my sucky days. At this period of time,he is the only one who understands if I'm in need. He never fails to bring me food for lunch even though he has to travel all the way down from home. I love my every moment with you, i truly do. Of course,i make it clear to myself that the clock cannot be argued with and that when it is time to leave for work,for him to attend to his dance practices,then these changes are as incontestable as the tides. I want him to succeed in all his strongest points. If it really is his wish to pursue his passion in dance,so be it. I just have to slowly change my ill perception towards dancers & support him throughout his journey.

i love you.