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Time changes everything, even you and I have changed

This life i'm living resembles an epic tale where dreams wilt before they bud and where a search for her true inner self finally makes a coward into a pretty damsel. My world is a patchwork of the beautiful & the horrific. As the days unfold, it combines the tones of memory and nostalgia with a desire to recreate a better tomorrow.




The rain, the winter spring has made us fade away



I really wonder how you feel on these nights so alone




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Wednesday, January 12, 2011 || 11:02 AM

As much as i would like to forget this long string of unfortunate days,I can never erase it from my memory. I left the house on Saturday evening; sulking and shouldering an overwhelming load of excruciating pain in my puny head. My temperature burned up to 39.9 degrees Celsius. I could slowly feel stages of cramps that started to make lumps of pain in my legs. My thighs and buttocks went numb,then ached back to life. My eyes gradually generated some pitiful tears while i was madly shivering in my couch. It was a terrifying moment. I never stop wondering why it abruptly occurred on me. Luckily,my parents were there to come to my rescue and immediately drove me to A&E at SGH. We patiently waited for a solid 7 hours. I was told that i would be placed in the observation ward for another 8 hours to keep track on my condition. (hated this part) I've honestly wasted a quarter and a half of my youth. The next morning,i didn't get any better. It sucks. I didn't want to stay any longer but i had to. I was pushed to one ward after the other,not knowing where exactly am i supposed to be. That's just one of their bad points. To top it all off,i was not properly examined by a specific doctor and their newly enrolled nurses are unpleasantly rude. I got an effing shock when they don't even know how to handle their surgery needles professionally. They even yelled (loudly) when communicating with a few difficult patients. It seems like I've been trapped there for months. I couldn't take it anymore. Me and my dad made a huge fuss out of it and only then they tried to take things seriously with me. Up to this date,they are still not sure of what I'm suffering from. Haven't i wasted enough resources already? Ggggrrr. Now that I've been discharged because i insisted to,i feel extremely better and healthier. I still have to take their antibiotics regularly though to avoid further complications. I would have to make a trip to SGH again this fourteenth to obtain my blood test results. Hopefully,it's nothing so severe. It may have been tough on me but i never fail to look on the bright side. If it wasn't because of that unlucky state,i will never realise how much they actually care for me. They are my family themselves,my Honeybunny & his friend (Taufiq) and last but not least my future brother-in-law (maybe). I am so thankful that they are part of my life. I'm not afraid anymore. Nevertheless,i believe that God won't put me to a test that is too much for me to bear. He is always fair (:


P/S: I'm on 10 days medical leave.