Ermz. Today's Thursday is going to be such a slack.Due to out-of-money circumstance,i have to abort whatever kind of plans i have in mind because i can't seem to have fun with no penny in my Charles & Keith pink wallet. I am now feeling so unfortunate,hais. It's okay,i don't mind.I am going to grow richer in six days time anyway. Then,I'll be happ(:ier again. I don't have to worry about my transportation fares to work,I can save a fraction of my pay to get that Samsung Galaxy without contract. Well,i am still highly considering if it is worth the catch. Next, i can watch the three dimensional 'Street Dance' movie with my move-your-ass-freak Boyfriend. Okay,that's it. I am a pure bummer when it comes to saving and i never know why. If only the bankers would automatically freeze my account when i bridge my cash flow limit, i wouldn't have to worry this much.Lucky i have my Boyfriend even though he is totally not good at it himself.At least he provides me with his listening ears.By now he should know that i enjoy whining about every single thing no matter what time it is. Speaking of him,i was so shocked last night when he appeared in front of my store at MBS to pick me up after work. You're so lovely, i miss you.

Wooosh,i just did break a record of being forty-five minutes early for work.It is super impressive.Then,i started to feel frightened all over again.I hate first days because i would appear so dumb and clueless and absolutely lonely.Except the fact that i failed to open an amount of sale today,everything else is fairly good.It is okay,i can always try harder.I believe there is no harm in taking baby steps towards a great success (: Then,my Monday is going to be such a splendid because i would be rotting at home again. Fuuh,my whole legs need a recharge after a long day balancing on my black killer heels.God,it was darn torturing.I almost get blisters all over my feet. Yikes! I guess i shall just stick to my two-inches heels.

Hais, for a moment i miss my boyfriend's exquisite voice which continues to survive and thrive and move me to tears.I wished he had stayed on the telephone line a bit longer. Have fun at work tomorrow okay? I am always here praying that you'll be fine. muah! love you.

Hello all. I have finally resuscitate and breathing life again into a dying animal after forty-five days of playing dead.I never really intended to take that long of a hiatus.My first thought before this was to just ground it to a halt, but i guess this is me.The canvas of my life,a perfectly encapsulated morsel of the good and bad past.So tonight,I put in a tad more effort to stay up later to blog.

I look noticeably fine but I've been emotionally and physically drained.When people approach me, they only see my surroundings, themselves or figments of their imagination- indeed everything and anything except me.Despite all,i am still growing to be stronger.It happened that I get a lump of disappointed expectations and thwarted ambitions along the way,accompanied with the feeling of total defeat.Yet, I'm not giving up.I also have of course a mix of satisfactory moments and a whirlwind of joy especially with my BabyPrince.It is as if i am in a bowl of endless mysteries.I don't hate the kind of journey I'm currently leading,i just want to walk on clearer paths and be in a happier disposition.I want to be in a comfortable home,unite some of the best blessings of existence and live nearly twenty-years in the world with very little distress or vex me.I bet it is harder to achieve than said. All this worries I've been weighing is like a rocking chair; it keeps me busy,but gets me nowhere. Geez,i need a cheer-up drink badly.

Now, I've to aim for a constant series of trade-offs.I must dump all those unnecessary garbage that is seriously bothering the hell out of me so that i could have more room for positive outcomes.That is why I've decided to work doubly hard in my new job.No doubt, i miss working in Zara with nicest bunch of colleagues even though we tend to create a fair bit of casual misunderstandings within ourselves.that was how i learnt that people can be two-faced,a lesson i never forgot.Hopefully,i would make better friends in MBS. Okay,now I'm so much nervous for my first day. God,please help.

Nevertheless,i know you'll be there for me,right Baby? That's why i love you.He is always by my side when I'm so alone and needed a partner to have fun with.We watched Despicable Me twice together,we walk around hunting for food to please our grumbling stomachs,we go for window shopping and many more.Just the both of us,and it feels terribly great! He himself has been making a lot more progression lately and i must say I'm really proud of you from the beginning you told me you want to change,for the better.Ever since then,i have faith in you no matter how slow the changes would take its place.Love can move a person to act in unexpected ways and lead them to overcome the daunting obstacles with a startling heroism.He is definitely the best,among the rest (: Muah!