It's currently 2.45am and i am here sitting in front of my PC,logging in into my FB again and listening to a track by Rihanna-Stupid In Love. I am now so emotionally attached to this song that i don't mind putting it on a constant playback. It has been playing for more than ten times i guess. Well,who cares. I need a break from all those rapid music because i don't see the point of tuning into it when i can't hear the words. It is just too noisy. At this hour,i am in my total relax mood with zero calls or sms for me to entertain and i put myself as 'appear offline' in MSN. I need a moment- alone. I am some sort happy that my life engine can stop running for awhile because here comes my second rest day for the week. Each passing days,i am growing even more jaded. It is suckier when i don't have great plans on such weekend. Oh well,i am already immune to it. It is soon going to be my first month serving in Zara and to be brutally honest, i do have light regrets about this situation I've put myself into. It is either I'm not ready yet for the challenge or I'm just too lazy to work for money anymore. Perhaps i think i need more time to roll with my party friends and have a taste of real nightlife. If i ever bring myself there, that would be my bloody first time. Yes,surprisingly. Bf,may i? (:
You bet he will approve me of going to such places.pfffft! The true fact is,guys are forever typical. They will hold up a big 'NO' sign every time we pop out questions about clubbing,staying overnight and etc. However,when it comes to their turn- we girls usually have a hard time stopping them. It is so fucking unfair.
Luckily,despite having such crossed opinions about each other- my Bf always try to make things better for both of us. He has tried different kind of cute ways to please me even if it would only last for a moment. & for all that priceless effort he has sincerely put in,there are times that i didn't extend my full gratitude to him.But that doesn't mean i choose not to appreciate what you've done for me.
Thank you Bf.
I love you so much.